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Another Anodyne

by St. Mary, St. Michael

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1.
Verse 1 Won’t you awake, awake oh sleeper awake Cause it’s not over The night is done, the day is new The light’s been shined on all you do So, awake, awake o sleeper awake Shake off the covers Open your eyes now’s the time to awake Verse 2 Won’t you awake, awake oh sleeper awake It’s time to move on Don’t you fret, you’re not to blame Throw off the yoke of guilt and shame Now awake, awake o sleeper awake And let the light in Open your eyes now’s the time to awake Cast off your fears, dry all your tears Let your pride go, hit your stride, oh Open your eyes now’s the time to awake
2.
Mr. Gray 04:36
Verse 1 I’ve never been the one to let people in My heart was never on my sleeve, never on my sleeve It’s easier to fight my demons on my own But here you come, with your serpent tongue You tell me this is who I am, this is who I am And maybe I should give in and let it go Chorus You promised me you’d be my anodyne You promised me you’d be my anodyne Verse 2 With every day that I spend with you Your words are cutting deeper still, even deeper still I hate it but I can’t seem to find my peace And so, I breathe you in like a cigarette With every breath you’re killing me, slowly killing me But damn it if you don’t taste so sweet Chorus You were supposed to be my anodyne You were supposed to be my anodyne Bridge Now I’m looking in the mirror Like some modern Mr. Gray The more I feed into your image The more I quickly fade away I don’t mind this Hell I’ve crawled to At least it’s something that I know But I can’t help but feel there’s more for me If you’d just let me go
3.
Verse 1 I remember waking up as if it all was just a dream It only took a moment to come flooding back to me I saw I was surrounded by disbelieving eyes How could I be here on the other side? Pre-Chorus God, I’m so sorry Verse 2 And then my eyes found you, a smile on your face You wrapped me in your arms, told me it’s ok On the day that you met me, did you know what I would do? How could you still love me after what I’d done to you? Verse 3 You tell me I’m forgiven. I want to believe it’s true And maybe given time I can forgive myself, too
4.
Verse 1 Tonight I'm too tired, to fight it anymore Another shot of whiskey, my defenses hit the floor Take me some time, think through my thoughts I've had three to many, but I'll take one more shot Verse 2 Leaves fade from green, into gentle gold A season begins, and another comes to close I've spent the last twenty, on comfort and ease But hell if I'm honest, it's not brought any peace Chorus I am looking for freedom, searching for release Looking for hope that can't be stripped from me Maybe I’ll find it, at the bottom of this drink I’m down on my knees, praying drunk Verse 3 I've got my visions, what I think is best I’ve got my vices and right now I'm desperate for a cigarette I’ve got desire deep in my bones And it’s never quenched No matter who I take home Bridge Fighting for life I embraced my death Desperate to breathe while still holding my breath Driven to gain I've suffered loss Twisted in pride, I've made swords of your cross My greed for good robs me of the best Struggling for freedom I gave up Your rest
5.
Rooted 04:06
Verse 1 I’m not scared of being wrong But I’m terrified of being lost So, it makes sense that I’d be in unfamiliar terrain I don’t see the path ahead I can’t even see the tracks I’ve left behind All the guiding tools that I have, have failed Chorus And I desperately want to see the beauty surrounding me But it takes a leap of faith, and it’s one that I’m afraid I don’t think I can make. I’m rooted in this place I’m rooted in this place Verse 2 How I yearn for black and white While a technicolor spectrum unfolds before my eyes All the shades and hues dance together, it’s chaos So, I turn and hide my face I’m just not made for all the messes of this place Maybe I’m better off learning to live without Bridge I keep trying to blaze a trail through this wilderness But every mark I make just fades. And I remain in the same state
6.
Aquamarine 03:42
Verse 1 Now the clock says it’s Just past three, but it must be broken Cause I swear I have Laid here for hours And my throat feels as If I’ve screamed all day, but I’ve barely spoken And I don’t see the Point in starting now Chorus 1 Now I know I will not forget you But I can’t see your face so clear anymore But those eyes Well, eyes just don’t come in that color Or at least they shouldn’t Verse 2 Now the clock says it’s Quarter to five, but my eyes won’t open I guess another Restless night for me And I’m stuck between Need to sleep to escape my emotions And avoiding Dreams of only you Chorus 2 Now I know I will not forget you But I can’t see your face so clear anymore But those eyes Well, eyes just don’t come in that color And it’s not that I can’t not love you I’ve all but moved on with my life for now But those eyes Those eyes, they haunt me still Verse 3 I’m not sure I could Easily recall the shape of your smile But that shade of blue Will stay with me
7.
I'm Sorry 03:34
Verse 1 They promised us that it was meant to be A storybook ending for you and me They promised us the highs would always outnumber the lows They failed to mention love can come and go Chorus I’m sorry for the things that I have done I’m sorry for the words that I have said Yes, I’m sorry that I gave up when you needed me the most Oh, I’m sorry that I turned and walked away Verse 2 Maybe we just gave up to soon Maybe it was never meant to be No matter why somewhere along the way we gave up hope Could it have worked out? Well now we’ll never know Verse 3 I’d like to say it’s all because of you Shit, I’d settle if you blamed it all on me The truth is that it’s somewhere in an ugly shade of gray And no matter what we do, it’ll stay that way And no matter what I do [it’ll stay that way]
8.
Verse 1 People always ask me why do I write sad songs? Is it because I’m sad, too? I tell them no. They’re just stories that I have Not what I feel. Cause I have you Verse 2 I want to believe that, but maybe they have a point Why don’t I write songs for you? Why can’t my actions speak for themselves? As far as I’m concerned It’s not what you say, but what you do Bridge Well, if my heart feels this way, why won’t my mouth say the same? If there’s a disconnect, is there something missing in my head? Chorus Do I love you less because I won’t write you songs?
9.
Verse 1 When I was young, I lived in fear Of an angry man who was fond of beer So, I took his gun, fled through the night I learned to steal just to get by Verse 2 I met a boy, his parents dead I caught him thievin’ from me while I slept He’s just trying to eat. He don’t wanna die And so, we steal just to get by Verse 3 Now after years, the kid is torn His heart is set on something more Says he’s had enough. Says that this ain’t right He don’t want to steal just to get by Bridge So I told him go. Go and find your path You got too much to offer for me to hold you back Now I can’t change, but I know I’ll find A fig from all the thistles forced into my life
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released August 31, 2019

All songs written, recorded, mixed and mastered by: Tyler Carson
Produced by: Michael Cassinari

St. Mary, St. Michael is:
Tyler Carson (Vocals,Guitar, Upright Bass)
Peter Burrell (Piano, Organ)
Michael Ronstadt (Cello, Lead Guitar on Figs From Thistles)
Seth Bowman (Drums)

Background Vocals by: Michael Cassinari & Jordan Fortenboher

Artwork by: Lauren Deitzer

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St. Mary, St. Michael Cincinnati, Ohio

St. Mary, St. Michael is the brain child of Tyler Carson, a musician from Nashville, Tennessee. As a lover of music history, Tyler was drawn to the raw, unfiltered story-telling of folk music. Upon moving to Ohio, he began exploring new styles of song writing, and over time began recording with various musicians. St. Mary, St. Michael is the collection of his work. ... more

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